There are the good days…And there are the bad…Indeed it is often the bad that help the most. They make you question the work. You have to stop and think. Who is she? Is this worth anything? What the hell is the point?And then you think of something. Anything. Her hand is broken. She’s scared. She loves Jabberjaw. You think a little more and work on that. Just her finger is broken. She’s scared of her past. She wasn’t allowed to watch Jabberjaw. Whatever it is, that thing is a piece to the next. And you continue on, one step at a time, and maybe go back, because back can be forward too, whatever comes next.Or you don’t…and start something else.
Monthly Archives: October 2012
Sexy Robots from Outer Space
I’ve given up on Battlestar Galactica. I lasted through six episodes and lost interest. Not only did the story get boring – how many hyper-jumps can you make in one episode? – but the characters were just wooden and silly…which of course leads to the disappointment of the highly touted sexy Cylon, Number Six:The red dress is something, but she isn’t. The truth is that she is exhausting in her incessant nymphomaniac demands and in the end makes sex seem dull. There is no subtlety, no mystery. Number Six offers no more than a Westworld Medieval robotor the amusingly named Gigolo Jane from A.I.The problem is that Number Six doesn’t have the substance of a major character; there’s only the one look and the one demand. While she might look great in her red dress, she remains light years behind her predecessors, Maria from MetropolisTerminatrix from Terminator 3or Pris from Blade Runner.Being a sexy robot isn’t easy. You can’t just stroke and pose like Galaxina. You have to come through with something else, an out-of-this-galaxy sort of appeal. A name would be good too.
The Freaking Fog
Writing is a compulsion. My days start like this: I wake up. I remember where I am. I think about how to write that down. It’s a simplified version, I admit, but it conveys the basics.
I’ve been working on My Bad Side for four years now, and I’m close to being done. The third draft is finished. One more read-through, and I’ll move on to another thing – maybe my giant sci-fi film! And that’s good. I did it. Yeah. But there’s a bad side (you’re damn right!!) to it as well. I’m in a freaking fog right now. My fingers hurt. I sleep too much. Nothing makes much sense. I’m a bit grumpy too. Ugh. That’s all I’ve got. I don’t like this. No! I need the constant fix of working through plot details, going back and forth, putting it in and taking it out and putting back in again, writing, writing, writing, deleting, deleting and writing again. Her arms are long. She chews her nails. She has a memory bracelet and small diamond ring. She is elegant but she’s done something she can’t understand. She abandoned her mother.When it’s done, it’s done. I have to leave it alone and be stuck with random images and ideas and wondering, “What if the polar caps really did melt? What then?”
Words III: Gambling Lingo
Gambling is one thing, knowing the language is another.
Bullet: Ace
Face:Jack, Queen or King
Mechanic: Dealer who cheats
Skin: Dollars
Whale: Gambler who makes extremely large wagers
And so…”Even with face, if the mechanic supplies bullets to the whale, your skin is done.”
Vegas: Slight Return
I’ve come to realize that my working methods are quite different than those of Francis Bacon. There is no way in the world that I could gamble all night and then work all day. I tried this on my first night and not only did not write a single word over the rest of the weekend, but couldn’t read anything either, except for the menu.
That said, I did make a few notes on Deirdre’s weekend in Vegas that I think might work: “A story was in my head but it was numbers – 4, 6, 12, 11, 3, 6, 8, 9, 8, 4, 7, 7, 9 – a sequence that I wanted to follow and rolled the dice to see what was next.”
I also noticed a very interesting woman, someone who might have something of Deirdre in her. She wore a short, elegant dress, white, and was most self-assured. She had two men with her, neither of whom said a word, and seemed to be waiting on her. She was very pleasant to everyone and rolled the dice quite happily…but there was something mysterious about her demeanor that was transfixing. She and Deirdre would get along well. Or maybe they would hate each other. One of the two.
All in with Bacon
I finished the third draft of my book just now. “Done and done,” as Crystal says. And now I’m off to Vegas. The painter Francis Bacon was known for painting all day and gambling all night. I’ve always found that idea alluring, throwing caution to the wind, going at it full steam, winning everything or losing it all, not just the money, but the characters too. It’s hard to do though; it can be really take its toll, especially on a Scot. “It can really get a hold of you when you need the money and win. Of course you spend the rest of the time losing it again and God knows how much more.”
Another difference between Francis Bacon and me is that he liked roulette, and I’m more into Black Jack. Better odds. I lose slower. But I’m tempted, I must admit. Lose it all or win everything. You never know what will happen next.
The Final Image
I have come to the end of the third draft of my novel, My Bad Side. I’m happy with it, I suppose, but the ending is still not complete. It’s an important aspect, a frozen final moment for the reader. It needs to have substance; it has to be worth getting to. And yet it can’t be packed too tight; that just makes it trite and ridiculous. Anyway, this is essentially what I have right now:
Well, there isn’t a boot, but there is a deserted beach, and it’s cold. The feeling is right in this image; it’s bleak – with tinges of blue, green and red – but it needs more, uh, Totoro wonder…
more Mr. Fox furry, uh, fury……
…a sort of half naked cartoony world , I guess, but cold…sort of like this…
But more…ahh! I’m still working on it! I’ll figure it out yet.
Sell Out?!? Okay.
Integrity is a catch word in the creative business. Whatever the vision, the aim, no matter what, we know that we must keep our integrity intact. We can’t allow the corporate world to debase and pervert our dreams. We cannot compromise ourselves for money. …unless of course that’s what we want to do.
I had a dream. There was a major science fiction film in the works. It involved eight worlds that were interconnected…that was about all they had. But the budget was big, a mega-monster, and somehow I had an inside track on writing the script. I was suddenly willing to do anything to get it. I offered to just give them my novel My Bad Side immediately, the book I’ve been working on for over four years, the book that defines my vision, and they hadn’t even asked for it. “It’s yours! Take it!” Just like that…just so I could maybe write a draft of this giant sell-out thing.
I woke up doubly disappointed. Mainly it was because I had been so willing to sell out…but more than that, it was the sad fact that there was no such film….which got me to thinking..
“It’s like this. There are eight worlds, and they’re all interconnected…”