And yet, I think of who to talk to all of the time.
The Best Times Are When I am Alone
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The Land of Broken Boys
“We live in a land of broken toys.”
“Broken boys?”
“Toys, broken toys.”
“What’s this? Who’s a broken toy?”
“You. Me. Everyone.”
“Why broken toys? What’s that?”
“You know, from the Rudolph the Reindeer movie.”
“That’s the Land of Forgotten Toys. Not Broken Toys.”
“Forgotten, broken. Same thing.”
“No, it’s not.”
“Well, we’re broken, right? Played with and fucked up.”
“You’re speaking gibberish.”
“We believed in something when we were small. And now that’s all gone.”
“Believed in what?”
“What our parents told us.”
“All my dad ever taught me was to shut the fuck up.”
It’s True. Nobody Cares
Nobody cares if I have a breakthrough in the narrative. Nobody cares if I nail the dialogue or a description. Nobody cares if I write one word or a thousand.
Nobody cares what I do today. Huh.
David Bowie’s Death on Facebook
Social media – yes, like you are reading now – is fatuous and inane, worse than anything ever produced on radio or television – and that includes The Bachelor. 
Facebook posts on the death of David Bowie serve as sad exemplars.
Mark Pautz 06h30 this morning. I was awake. Strange, as I’d only got to bed four hours earlier. But it was then that the musical soundtrack of the first 55 years of my life came to an end.
Terry Boyd I am 43 and I have always known David Bowie to be singing he was an iconic singer, and there will never ever be another David Bowie of his kind.
William Lemos David Bowie a true hero
What is it about any of these people – indeed anyone, you or me – that makes one a David Bowie expert? Our facile love of his music? Our hyperbolic connection to his lyrics? Good god, even The New York Times sounded ridiculous in their piece on how Bowie “transcended” music and art. 
The truth is his music didn’t transcend anything. He was a great musician, and all of this  blather only acts as a depressing testament to how lonely everyone is too scared to admit. 
While keeping up to date with each other’s life moments on social media can be a nice thing, as is watching cute red pandas, reflections on the importance of an artist for an individual is irrelevant and utterly pathetic.
Someone to claim us, someone to follow
Someone to shame us, some brave Apollo
Someone to fool us, someone like you
We want you Big Brother, Big Brother
Dead Things in the Street
I can’t move my head. Not even my shoulders. I am pinned, a bright side light on my face and neck.
I am flat and horrible, my eyes wide, stuck against the ground. Stuck there, panicking. I can’t even move my leg. I have no control. I am completely helpless, trapped by monsters, people I don’t know, who have left me here to die, to be tortured and think nothing of it.
I try to close my eyes to make it go away, but it is still there. I can’t move. I want to scream but I can’t even do that. I am stuck in this silence with not even myself, with nothing but my labored miserable loneliness.
(Yeah, I know. I always end with a tree.)